Chance

Today I’m doing this thing where I love who I am

because the other side of the coin is hating that same self

that wouldn’t pay to become something

“nice to look at when you come home”

 

You see I’m sick of writing poems about how you broke me

So here’s me showing you how I put myself back together

 

I took the same mirror I’ve been looking into

watching my self-esteem drown

said Bloody Mary three times

and stared into the eyes of a woman I’ve been taught to fear

 

Her eyes were dark blue

and when she looked back at me

I felt something ignite

 

I smashed the glass for a chance at seven years bad luck

so that when fate might arrive at my door

my lips would turn up

as she asks, “Have you been waiting for me?”

I’d laugh, say yes, and lay down the conditions of a new contract

 

One where how I look is gold

meaning it’s worthless

meaning in the end it equates to nothing

but one thing

that my eyes will be that of a childhood ghost

staring back at any man that sees me as prey

 

My body is fire

the tears I cried weren’t enough to put me out

The shame you made me feel just for existing in this form

wasn’t enough to turn me to ash

 

When I dance I move like the flames that entranced you on a dark night

and I am the light that beckoned you forward

My heart still burns with the same heat

despite the cold you let in when I opened the door

and bade you enter

 

This is not the story of me rising

like the phoenix

on a new day

This is the tale

of a woman

that never let herself die

 

 

Hey everyone!

I’m using the word chance as a word prompt today. It’s one that I gave a friend to try and then we thought it would be fun for me to try too! This is what I came up with and I hope you like it.

Thanks for reading!