I take my clothes with me into the bathroom
so I can dress before seeing myself in the mirror
before looking at my breasts that weren’t good enough
I then ask myself, good enough for who?
At what point did I lose my opinion about my own body
and at that point did I lose ownership of my skin too
If I drop the towel to the floor and catch sight of my image
I place my hands on my breasts and I wonder
perhaps they aren’t too small
and only your hands too big
I run a finger beneath them,
ask myself, is this where the knife will cut
and then question my own eyes
is this really what you want?
What of you will it make better?
when did you lose sight of who you wanted to be
What of the women before you?
of all the writers who caused your chest to swell with pride
when they’re words told you,
you are good enough as you
What of the future?
should you become what they are now
to another
What will you tell the girl, that you see as beautiful
that you see is once as you were
How will you tell her
you are good enough as you
when you never felt good enough for anyone
and willingly changed to fit a perception of beauty
you never even believed to be true
Very nicely done. Could sense the feelings behind. Ah! True beautiful lies in the mind.
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It really does and that is how I really feel! But brain being bad, you know how it can be! x
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Hmmm. Brain is a weird fella! Lol!
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Wow, a wondrous reflective piece, and I loved your concluding lines. 😊
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Thanks, Ivor! It was written really quickly right before I went in the shower. I didn’t think of it as reflective but now you’ve pointed it out I see it. Thank you!
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I was having a peep, I can’t sleep
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Did you sleeps? 😦
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Not enough, but I’m busy today doing one of my charity barbecue sausages sizzles, xx
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The mirror never lies, it will always tell you things as they really are. It could be your friend and later… your enemy! Also, you can not lie to it because it’s looking at you straight in the eyes! You’ll figure this out Arbie. Good writing. 🙂
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The mirror might not but the mind certainly does! Stupid mind being all stupidy! Stupidy… nice word there haha. Thank you!! X
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Goodness Arbie. This is all naked truth; expression of the voices we seldom admit to even hearing. Very bold and artful. Well done 💕😊
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Thanks, Diana! Unfortunately, they rarely bloody shut up. I’ve warned them no phone for a week unless they do, but you know how they are! BTW, I’m loving your Instagram pictures! *drools* That sunset! Sunrise? I don’t know which it is I just know it’s beautiful! :O
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Haha yes I know that feeling …. mine shout at around 3 am. “Get outta bed, you’re missing the day! Wanna dance, lets listen to music. Netflix would be fun!”
Such din!
Thanks for the Insta compliment 😘🌹…. I live close to the bay here and zip down to view sunsets frequently. No two ever the same …. like all of us !
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Lovely poem. I could absolutely relate. I felt myself in your words and saw it all unfolding in front of me … the trap of the mind, the freedom of the mind- which one will we choose?
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Gosh I like this comment better than the poem haha. Trap of the mind vs freedom, constant battle isn’t it? Its like deep down you know what you’re seeing is lies for monetary gain, but inside you is all that doubt and what if, too. It’s a bugger basically ain’t it!
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I wonder how many women had that discussion before actually having surgery. Sad to think that, isn’t it?
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I tend to over think everything so I’d probably have the same inner monologue over eating toast for breakfast, but! I dread to think how many are pushed by societies hand for “improvements” that are based on nothing but cash flow. Keep telling people there’s something wrong with them and they’ll keep looking for the fix. I’m completely sucked in by it too, it’s hard one to resist!
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Hi, Arbie….I read one woman’s story about body image, and, although it has to do with cancer, her thoughts are admirable (as are yours). http://trineamazon.com/2017/06/08/womanly-wonder/
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Bloody hell she’s smart. I think she hit the nail on the head when talking about what it means to be a woman and how that can play on our identity and self esteem. Thank you so much for sharing this with me! 💕🌹
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Wow! Great ‘reflective’ piece!
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