Baby Steps

I’m going to start this with a disclaimer: I saw the headline, I didn’t read the article.

I couldn’t. But, I also couldn’t not write anything this time.

I have so many times before felt outrage and then scrolled down, and there’s something happy and, honestly, it is emotionally confusing. Cruelty, cute video, motivational quote, murder, 10 ways to lose weight and look good!, child rapist walks free, try not to laugh video. Ha, you’re probably wondering, where the hell are you seeing this? Well, homepages, websites, I’m sure you’ve seen it too.

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t want to live in a world where all we witness is cruelty, or all we see are happy videos to blind us to what is happening around us, but I feel like it is moving too fast. We almost don’t get time to process it.

I didn’t click the article because my brain will bring the images back to haunt me – this is I suppose, where I have no choice but to process it. The article, is one about animal cruelty and how some disgusting person murdered an animal. We don’t often use that word when it comes to animals, do we? Murder.

The thing is, and here is me speaking about one of the “On Writing” posts I’d hoped to publish this month, I can’t let go of these acts of cruelty towards animals. Now, I know there will always be someone who will jump on this and say “but what about this” or so on, and so on. To that: we can care about more than one thing, but having focus on a specific isn’t bad either. I’m glad that people are driven to do something about so many different things. It reminds me that there is good in the world. It doesn’t make me angry that not everyone is as outraged about certain things as I am.

Back to the point. I’m writing this because I had to reclaim some of my memory, some of my humanity, a moment in history where I can remember this animal lost its life in a horrific way. Honestly, do I feel I need to read the article before writing this? No. I’ve seen enough of human torture towards animals that I don’t need to. This is for all of them. Not just something to scroll past, not just something for a moments sadness, something that is to drive and to push and to motivate.

It is why I write.

I am so sick of feeling useless, feeling like every day more is happening behind closed doors and despite how much I would like to end it by force (I never pretended to be nice) I know that I can’t. So, I write stories. Tales with animals in that are to be cherished, that aren’t to be hurt. If they are hurt, then their loss will ache in a reader’s heart just as any characters would. I try to promote compassion in imagined worlds in hope that goodness will creep into our world.

It’s a small hope, but we are each granted that, are we not?

I know, and I am further driven by this knowledge, that many are outraged by animal cruelty, because there are many good people in this world. Yet, it continues.

In disgusting incidents with individuals like the one that led me to write this, and in wildly confusing moments (as an evolved species – if we truly are, how is this possible?) carried out by groups.

Of course, there is more that can be done than just writing stories, there is more that can be done that just writing a blog post, there is always more. But we should never be discouraged by how little we do, not as long as we are doing something.

That is why I had to write this.

For a kitten.

And for everyone who shies away from doing something, out of fear that it is not enough.

25 thoughts on “Baby Steps”

  1. If you read back one of my comments where I said that despite all the imaginary stories and craziness that you inspire about your life and personality. Those are only WORDS,,, Deep down you are a solid person with a great heart and deep feelings about all living creatures…that includes me too. I want to tell you that you confirmed what I said with this post. Good girl Arbie! 🙂

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    1. Thank you! I know, far too many if you ask me. Then, we also have lots of wonderful people in the world too! <— I keep needing to tell myself this despite seeing them haha. I binge The Dodo for it! x


  2. Arbie, you are such a precious soul and I feel like I connect with every word you utter. I agree with all of this. I lost my beautiful doggy over a year ago now and I still cry at the thought of him, so animal cruelty is simply sickening to me.
    You are amazing, love ❤️

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    1. I find it amazing that it isn’t sickening to all but I also think there is something seriously wrong with us as a species, or well, maybe not, maybe it’s just what we evolved from. I’m sorry about your doggy. 😦 I don’t think we ever let them go fully, they were our friends, after all. xx

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      1. My doggy…he was a beauty. In and out.

        I miss you so…
        I am here for a little while today..
        Are you okay? Is Other You back or are you still grappling with the Other , Other you?
        I love them all. The passionate, confident friend in you is always there anyway for me, so I’m hugging you.

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      2. Oh you’re about!! Wahey!! I’m alright. I’m pretty much just in the limbo part at the moment. Feel like I’m constantly reigning myself in and its getting exhausting, just waiting for the change so I can get it over and done with and go back to this. I’m going to be posting about this soon. I just wrote about mental health and illness (I think I messed up a little though, I was saying we all have mental health issues, not that we’re all ill haha – wanted to blur the lines but not that much damnit haha, what comes with being vague!) It works in my favour for my next post but ugh. I never get it right. How are you? I just realised I have a comment to reply to you that I considered so important I’d come back to when I could concentrate and then… Hello mind like a seive! Will get on that! Hugs to you too my friend! 💕

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      3. I can’t wait to read it. I don’t know if I told you but, I’ve been on antidepressants since November, and honestly Arbie.. they’re not working. I have a couple of destructive OCDs that are rampaging atvtheb moment. I long for normalcy but this life I have made for myself… it’s fraught with darkness and pain and it’s my fault.
        When I read you, I understand you so much. It’s comforting in a selfish way. I think we’re kindred in many ways, love.
        Inwishbinhd a little more time to write more but…in a week or so I’ll be back properly I hope.
        All the love ❤️

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  3. I think I know the story you are referring to. I unfortunately watched a video about it and it made me sick to my stomach. I just don’t understand how someone could think doing that to an innocent animal is a good idea. And then to be laughing about it and posting it online is beyond redemption to me. I’m 100% behind harsher animal cruelty laws and punishments.

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    1. Absolutely! It’s amazing that people can walk away with a slap on the wrist after committing such a crime! It’s the posting it online part that always gets me, why do they do that last bit? Is it because they don’t think they’ll come under much punishment? They must know they’ll receive a massive amount of hatred – but what a weird thing to want.

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