I’ve been on the verge of talking about mental health more lately, rocking myself back and forth over it.
I then realized that I don’t often talk about things I try to do to make it better.
This happened in the early hours of the morning and since it involves music I thought I’d involve you.
I’ve been trying to ride out waves of extreme (and random) anxiety. It completely floods over me leaving me cold and in a panic, when there isn’t a specific thing to panic about my brain will bring up whatever it can as a kind of, look, here, this is something you can get upset about!
Well, I actually had myself a little success last night. This might be because I was quite delirious but fuck it, it’s mine. I’m taking it.
This isn’t a new technique. Doctors, therapists, psychologists, pigeons with clipboards (come to think of it, maybe I shouldn’t have let that one in my house), they all kind of work with similar stuff. Honestly, it usually doesn’t do me much good, but for whatever reason I decided to ride with the wave of anxiety last night, and here’s how it went with the aid of a sleep deprived brain and some good buddies.
cue deep breathing…
“I am riding this wave, I am in the sea, I am on a surf board.
It doesn’t matter that I can’t swim I am in control because this is a magical sea and I am riding these waves like a boss.
The sun is shining and the sky is blue and I’m burnin’ through the sky, yeah, 200 degrees
that’s why they call me Mr…
wait….
Those aren’t my thoughts, what the?
cue music
it is very important you have this song in your head!
I’m a shooting star leaping through sky
like a tiger
defying the laws of gravity
cue visuals of my brain
I’m a racing car passing by
like Lady Godiva
I’m gonna go go go
there’s not stopping meeeeeee
brain enters stage left
I’m burning through the sky yeaaaah
200 degrees
that’s why they call me mr farenheit
I’m travelling at the speed of liiight
I wanna make a supersonic man outta you
cue spotlight on brain
I’m a rocket ship on my way to Mars
on a collision course
I am a satellite
I’M OUTTAAAAA CONTROL
enter my brain in full swing
I’m a sex machine ready to reload
like an atom bomb
About to oooh oooh oh explodeeee
now it’s just showing off
Don’t stop me noooowww
I’m having such a good time
I’m having a ball
If you wanna have a good time just gimme a caaaaallllll
Cause I’m having such a good time
I don’t wanna stop at aaallllll
final act: my brain dancing with anxiety
As you can probably imagine, this did nothing to help me get to sleep. It did help my waking hours not be quite so awful though. In fact, during that time, it was just plain ol’ fun.
I hope this post brings a smile to someone’s face and who knows, maybe you’ll find yourself summoning the Dude and Queen yourself one night!
And the woooorld
I’ll turn it inside ouutttt yeaaaa
Arbie Krae 
I’m laughing and giggling to myself, Oh wow, such a wondrous post, I’m flying high with you, it’s exactly what I do, to give the anxieties the shooo, and play music on cue, sometimes rousing, could be blues, maybe a chocolate or two, all the best now, I’m thinking of you.
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I couldn’t play this version but I searched and listened to the same song and it was lovely and soothing! I hope it was still the right one and what you wanted me to hear! I’m soooo glad you were laughing! It was a very funny moment but one I really struggled to try and convey. I think The Dude cracks me up regardless though. Now chocolate sounds like a great idea! 😛 Thinking of you too, my friend. 🙂 xx
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Hi Arbie, I’m off on my Pacific 🌏 cruise on Saturday, so I’ll catch up when I get back in 2 weeks
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Oooh!! Have an amazing time and yes, I can’t wait to here how it all goes! Will miss you in the meantime! ❤ xxxx
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It did bring a smile.
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Ah, that makes me feel really happy! 😀 xx
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So when you become anxious, will this song and this video help you to work out of it? Minimize it? I very much hope you’ve found a sort of charm to get out of it! That would be awesome!
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Ah, I tried it again this morning and unfortunately not! But it did work for that time and that’s good enough for me! It might work again in the future, I think it depends on how bad it is and where I am in the up and the down of it. Comedy and humour can be pretty damn helpful though I’ve found. Especially at creeping a mood up after a bad bout! xx I hope you’re well!
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Ohhhh… comedy, eh? I recommend looking up Whose Line Is It Anyway, Scenes From A Hat compilation on YouTube. Good stuff
Or Tim Minchin, virtually anything.
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I will, thank you! Gosh Tim Minchin, I’ll have a look! Have you seen Black Books?
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Fun! And on a more serious note, I’m glad it helped you out 🙂
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Thank you!! 😀 xx
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the dude is OK if you don’t over think him (or think at all). ha ha
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He’s a funny one! Aha!
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Awesome!
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Good god woman! Mr. Fucking Farenheit? I LOOOOOOVE that song! It’s all sorts of amazing. It also reminds me of my days at uni, it was the mantra of the drama society (of which I was a superstar, obvs 😉😏)
We’ve spoken about this before, but the brain hooking onto any negative thought as a personal torture, is something I know well. It ruined many years of my childhood and until you voiced it in your uniques, beautiful and empathetic yet clear way, I thought I was alone in this torturous insanity. But I’m not. Not when you’re around.
And the Dude. Oh gosh.. that film…unlike any other. Brilliant.
I always knew we connected, you and I but sometimes when I feel list I come to your words and I feel a kindred spirit. Chatting over a cuppa in our brain library…love it.
You’re my beautiful axelotl and I appreciate the crap out of you
💝
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