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How Queen and The Dude helped me battle anxiety

I’ve been on the verge of talking about mental health more lately, rocking myself back and forth over it.

I then realized that I don’t often talk about things I try to do to make it better.

This happened in the early hours of the morning and since it involves music I thought I’d involve you.

I’ve been trying to ride out waves of extreme (and random) anxiety. It completely floods over me leaving me cold and in a panic, when there isn’t a specific thing to panic about my brain will bring up whatever it can as a kind of, look, here, this is something you can get upset about!

Well, I actually had myself a little success last night. This might be because I was quite delirious but fuck it, it’s mine. I’m taking it.

This isn’t a new technique. Doctors, therapists, psychologists, pigeons with clipboards (come to think of it, maybe I shouldn’t have let that one in my house), they all kind of work with similar stuff. Honestly, it usually doesn’t do me much good, but for whatever reason I decided to ride with the wave of anxiety last night, and here’s how it went with the aid of a sleep deprived brain and some good buddies.

 

cue deep breathing…

“I am riding this wave, I am in the sea, I am on a surf board.

It doesn’t matter that I can’t swim I am in control because this is a magical sea and I am riding these waves like a boss.

The sun is shining and the sky is blue and I’m burnin’ through the sky, yeah, 200 degrees

that’s why they call me Mr…

wait….

Those aren’t my thoughts, what the?

 

 

cue music

it is very important you have this song in your head!

 

I’m a shooting star leaping through sky

like a tiger

defying the laws of gravity

 

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cue visuals of my brain

 

I’m a racing car passing by

like Lady Godiva

I’m gonna go go go

there’s not stopping meeeeeee

 

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brain enters stage left

 

 

I’m burning through the sky yeaaaah

200 degrees

that’s why they call me mr farenheit

I’m travelling at the speed of liiight

I wanna make a supersonic man outta you

 

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cue spotlight on brain

 

I’m a rocket ship on my way to Mars

on a collision course

I am a satellite

I’M OUTTAAAAA CONTROL

 

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enter my brain in full swing

 

I’m a sex machine ready to reload

like an atom bomb

About to oooh oooh oh explodeeee

 

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now it’s just showing off

 

Don’t stop me noooowww

I’m having such a good time

I’m having a ball

If you wanna have a good time just gimme a caaaaallllll

Cause I’m having such a good time

I don’t wanna stop at aaallllll

 

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final act: my brain dancing with anxiety

 

 

As you can probably imagine, this did nothing to help me get to sleep. It did help my waking hours not be quite so awful though. In fact, during that time, it was just plain ol’ fun.

I hope this post brings a smile to someone’s face and who knows, maybe you’ll find yourself summoning the Dude and Queen yourself one night!

 

 

And the woooorld

I’ll turn it inside ouutttt yeaaaa